Category Archives: Motherhood on Fleek

#HeavenlyFather Trending, a Cause for Celebration

Today is Father’s Day and all over Twitter the hashtag HeavenlyFather is trending. This warmed my heart. Why? Not because my Father’s Day has been great, or because there are celebrations going on, or that I am happy and satisfied right now. But because right now in this moment, with heart broken over this day, I know that God Himself is touching people in new ways. I know that He knows my pain. That pain is not something I can fully discuss, nor could I communicate it properly if I tried. It’s filled with the anguish of my son’s father being completely absent, coupled with the grief over my own father’s absence during the darkest time of my life. However I know that I am loved by One who cares beyond my comprehension. This pain would be insurmountable if it weren’t for that realization. So I’m happy to know that there are so many others out there who know this love like I do. If you haven’t experienced it, you should try it.

Happy Fathers Day to My Heavenly Father

This…. the cutest thing ever.

#JesusTheReasonIStand

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That Was Niiiiiiice!

Juneteenth was nice

I’m so glad I got out of the house and went. I wasn’t feeling up to it, but I’m so glad I joined the festivities. I hadn’t been in more than 10 years as I’d never visited home during the summer while I was away. I’m proud of Denver, we have the largest and longest running Juneteenth Music Festival​ in the nation. I kept passing by people who were locked in embraces, old friends who hadn’t seen each other in years. Just days after the Charleston church massacre artists took the stage and celebrated this moment. This moment of oneness, of unity, the this moment that is that of what normal moments in our community look like. There was love in the air. Good smells in the air, fellowship, friendship. It was blazing hot but cool breezes hit pockets bringing the same refreshing of the day’s spirit. Personally I’m a bit amazed at myself,  I use to feel really lonely in crowds, even among people that I knew. But I didn’t feel that today. Feeling settled in who I am. Seems that I’m not the only one who’s grown, because I feel Denver in a new place. Enjoyed good music, good smiles, good times.

These guys was jammin!!!

My very rough cut, camera jumbled recording of really good music. My baby boy Caleb and I in on the action.

Okay so my mind was blown by this dude!! This is DJ Cavem! I have never heard anything like this before. I was laughing at myself as I looked through the crowd knowing I was the only one who brought a salad packed with spinach to Juneteenth, lol. Then I hear this dude over the speakers, “We die more from drive-throughs than by drive-bys.” I love him! Check this, he’s doooope!! http://djcavem.com/ Officially a fan! #GreenTheBlock

Juneteenth 2015 Denver- Eco-Hip Hop- DJ Cavem

#Denver #Juneteenth #ThatWasNice #Growth

No More Biggie Smalls

Weight. It’s a problem. Most people know this struggle. The up and down of the scale. My struggle with weight has been one of extremes. At my heaviest I topped the scale at 200 pounds filling out a size 16 on my 5 foot 4 inch frame. Everything ached all the time. I had extreme joint pain, I had multiple feminine problems, extensive digestive issues, circulation problems, chronic headaches, and extreme fatigue.

biggiesmalls100So getting down to the nitty gritty of this post.  I’m really uncomfortable sharing this which is precisely why I’m doing so. My size 16 shrunk to a size 10 back in 2012 after a good run with juicing. Since then I’ve leveled out right around size 12/13, which is my current size. Because I’m no longer a size 16 I’ve accepted my current size although it is not my ideal weight and with it has returned many of the health issues from my size 16 days. However these issues returned with a vengeance. The joint, feminine, digestive, circulation problems, and chronic headaches and fatigue that I once had must have told all of their friends to come and camp out in my cells, because I’m experiencing a different level of health issues. Take a few years of more trauma than I can articulate, add in having a baby later in life, along with just simply getting older in general, and there you have a cocktail for some health serious problems. However, the way my single mom status is set up, (did you catch Kevin Hart up in there), I do not have the luxury of not changing my health. I can’t risk there being some chronic issue 5 years from now that I could have done something about today. At the level that my health seems to be deteriorating I have to with equal vigor launch an attack against illness, pain, fatigue and weight. And I must do so now.

So I’m starting, and I will chronicle my journey. #NoMoreCrumbs. I’m not settling for this pain, I’m not settling for illness, I’m not settling for extra weight. I’m not settling for chronic fatigue. And no matter how much it hurts, no matter how tired I may be, I’m going after my best so that my son has his mommie around for a very long time.