Tag Archives: Encouragement

Reserved Seats

reservedThere are some people who will regret how poorly they treated you in the past because your future is so glorious. There are some people, the ones who spread lies, those who believed those lies, those who believed heinous things about you without verification of truth. They are the enemies that God will prepare your table before. No need to prove anything, no need for validation. Your success, your blessings, your overwhelming success will speak for themselves. #ThusSaidTheSpiritOfTheLivingGod

You spread out a table before me,
    provisions in the midst of attack from my enemies; You serve me a six-course dinner
    right in front of my enemies.
You care for all my needs, anointing my head with soothing, fragrant oil,
    filling my cup again and again; You revive my drooping head;
    my cup brims with blessing.     -Psalm 23:5 (VOICE/MSG)

Tiffany Lane-Crane/ TiffEpiph  2014


This Valley that Appears to Be Death

this valley that appears to be death

(Found a writing from a way back)….

I was really discouraged. I felt heavy for days.

I reached out to a couple folk who couldn’t or wouldn’t understand.

There’s the mommie thing. I coddled a child who cant currently say I love you back to me. I dissected his needs discerning the difference between toddler defiance and special needs frustration, while my head ached and heart raced. I calmed screeches and screams that he uses for words, while calming the inward anxiety that they bring. We tosseled over each other living in a space not sufficient for two. Stress was high, patience was thin.

Then there were the reminders. I was reminded of a friends betrayal and judgment during my lowest of moments. I was reminded of the one who abandoned his child and left me holding the pieces.

There were questions. I asked for assistance to be told that I make too much money to qualify, this unbalancing act between not ever enough, just over completely destitute.

Then there was the ripping of heart strings. Promises made, but broken. Emotional head games and manipulations. All around me the author of confusion seemingly placing my name on the tongues of many. I was ridiculed and lied on.

Then there was the giving of myself. I was not encouraged by the people that I encouraged.
I was criticized instead of thanked for going out of my way to help.

It all caught up with me, it all began to choke me. It created physical pain throughout every extremity.

I wanted to run away. Far away from here, take a taxi cab and get away fast.

So I sat in a park before having to clock into a job that makes me just as weary as my life and I attempted to focus my thoughts long enough to pray.

Then the Holy Spirit took me to my vision. He reminded me of this thing He gave me to do. He reminded me that once I’m holding my treasure that it wont matter how long it took for me to obtain it. That the spoils would outweigh this weight, this angst that I hold today.

I saw myself with a smile on. I saw myself accomplishing the very things I prayed for. I saw a glimpse of a finish line.

I got encouraged, I got lifted. And not that get happy real quick fake kind of, quickly passing encouragement, but the long lasting power of the why of where I am.

I must continue and not throw up my hands, I cant faint now. I’m too near my goal. So for this valley that appears to be death, you are nothing more than a shadow, and just beyond you is the breaking of day.

Ending Credits Only Run at The End

Heart-healedDefinition of the Holy Spirit. I woke up this morning very broken, very. I went to my church from LA’s website looking for a word. I watched my Bishop Kenneth Ulmer’s (Faithful Central Bible Church) sermon posted on the website’s home page. Using Philippians 1:6 Bishop preached on how God would complete the good work that He’s started, he said it won’t be over until it’s good.

An hour later I tuned into the live service at Potter’s House Dallas where the praise leader sings, “It aint over till it’s good,” in those words specifically. I’d never heard that scripture that way before but within minutes I’d heard it twice between thousands of miles apart.  

The Holy Spirit sent the same message to me to such a low place. There are a lot of people who take scripture as a feel good thing or that those Christians over there and all their hype make things so simple or that they’re weird, or whatever the thought is. But I can tell you that I was not in a good place. I was asking God when this season was going to end, I was questioning if He cared for me and my son at all, I was questioning my very value, my very life, and I have been in the place for a while. So in saying that it was only God who could have given me hope from this place, and it wasn’t just nice words but only by the power of the Holy Spirit that I haven’t fallen into complete despair.

He fixes brokenness and what I am dealing with today will be over when the good. Now how wonderful is that? No matter the pain of our present, how wonderful is it that the ending credits will not run on this chapter. How wonderful is it that God would not allow us to stay here or get only the benefits of where we are today. But God will say “the end” when the full goodness of this pain is brought to fruition.

#Amazing #Hallelujah #ThankYouJesus #YouAreMoreThanEverythingToMe #ItAintOverTillItsGood #ButGod